I've reached the point of denial now, for about two weeks I was ready for him to just be here, now I'm convinced he's never coming and I'm not sure I believe there is a little human in there. Today I went to the Dr he was actually delivering a baby so my nurse practitioner Erin who I LOVE checked me. This might be a little too personal but she has been amazing my OB before her would just go for it relaxed or not and one time I almost kicked her and I never went back, it hurt! After my traumatic old OB Erin helped me relax at my first appointment with her she has the gentlest touch and I completely trust her and am able to relax now, it's a great experience in comparison to my old Dr whom I will not mention so tempted though.
Anyway the bump:
He's dropped really it happened the day I took this picture, the day I turned 37 weeks. Today Erin said I am dilated to a 2 and 50% ephased, I feel good about that! After I went to work and my coworkers well some of them are convinced that he is coming soon! He's still in his pattern of a couple days of wildness and a couple days of sleeping, he a funny kid. I think he just gets excited and wears himself out and then takes it easy for a couple days. He is also engaged in my pelvis to a -2, it starts at -3, and than +1 would mean his head is coming out!
Food:
Cravings- Calcium, one day I had a spinach omlette, a spinach salad with cheese, nachos, almond butter toast, milk, more nachos, a quesadilla, and ice cream, seriously this kid must be growing some solid bones! Besides that fruit and chocolate have been my next favorite!
Aversions- For some reason vegtables haven't been sounding as delish as normal but I still try to pound them and incorporate them in all my meals.
Fashion:
My maternity clothes are feeling a little snug although some of my favorites aren't maternity clothes like this downeast shirt it's the bomb for pregnancy, now that Hudson has dropped my Old Navy maternity jeans cut in a better spot again. My feet always start the day in regular shoes and end up uncomfortable so now I choose sandles or to go with my bigger shoes, for any lady out there who battles which size shoe to buy, when in doubt go up! I always fit in 7 1/2 or 8 and the 8's are great but anything smaller is a lost cause for now!
Best moment:
Snuggling TJ soon we will be 3 and it is exciting but I am trying to soak up as much 2 time before as possible!
Sleep:
I still sleep great, rolling from side to side hurts, my main complaint is I can't get enough sleep and fall asleep pretty much anytime I sit/lay down, at work I often just go lay on a couch for 15 mins and pass out. I have only gotten through my hypnobirthing CD 1X without falling asleep, ever, no matter what time I do it I konk out!
What I miss:
my old clothes, bending has become nearly impossible since Hudson has dropped, the Wasatch Back! Today I had a great run, I started to think maybe I could still run it next week, but I don't think I would feel the same way in the middle of the night running 10 miles, or running up a 45 degree grade.
Looking forward:
Having the house completely in order and being a mom and seeing TJ as a dad!
Symptoms:
A little achy and tired!
uge list of things to do but after like 2 hours of running errands I just want to hibernate, I draw too much attention, little boys gasp in horror at my belly and grab there mom's, dad's try to guess how far along I am digging themselves in holes as one mad said "wait are you pregnant", me "no I'm just fat" him "you look huge, let me guess 3 weeks away, I mean I can tell you are normally cute and small, not that you aren't cute now, is that your husband he is going to beat me up" (actual conversation at Fresh Market with Mr Budwiser sagging pants himself and now I am only going to Costco and Sunflower market where do these people come from?), and if I try to do something like hike or run I get "oh good for you, glad you are wearing rescue colors", or "look at that ball of sunshine", or "are you trying to get him out", really it's no wonder most pregnant women park it on the couch. With no internet access I get stumped and that letter I needed to look up an address for well that is the last thing I want to do when I finally get my hands on my computer! I should really make this private or have a separate blog for my random rantings, my intentions for this one was mainly cooking and crafts but that hasn't really happened. Although I did make a cute fathers day card tonight I will have to post a picture. And isn't that the point of a journal to get all your mindless rantings and ravings out on so that the rest of the world can think you are perfectly normal. The baby is getting really low and I'm feeling calm except I am worried about his name, I love Hudson but what if it doesn't fit him, his back up name is James, but I feel like I need to reread through every baby name just in case. Ahhh!!!!! What if he comes tonight and we name him Hudson because I was too lazy to reread the baby name book! Then there are all other kinds of decisions like circumcision, I don't want to make that choice for him! It seems like the trend is headed down really quick except for in UT and with good reason because there is no good reason to do it, do I circumcise him to fit in here or not so that he fits in elsewhere, and why is it even about fitting in anyway, frankly that little piece of skin freaks me out but is that a good enough reason to cut it off? That's probably all that is keeping him in right now fear of circumcision! Then there is the adorable bassinet my sister-in-law lent us. We need a mattress for it the Dr OK'd the egg carton material but I went to buy some today and it was $40, seriously, we mine as well buy a whole new bassinet, but don't worry I plan on persisting on and finding somewhere that sells by the yard instead of a delux queen size pad. I just feel incapacitated without the internet to look up stores and call them and I am too tired and Salt Lake is not shopper friendly everything is spread apart and I live by nothing. On a good note I was able to find the matching book end for Hudson's books and I ordered this adorable print for his nursery. Sadly it is coming from London so I had to pay $2.00 extra for shipping but really totally worth it if you ask me. Anyway I think I got most of my ranting out except for the huge black bumble bee trying to nest by our window, that is freaky! Oh and really what is the deal with my cravings, early on it was all healthy food, now all I want is chocolate, candy, and ice cream. I've still managed to eat healthy but I've added desert between every meal somebody help me! 
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